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Hello dear friends, I know I haven't been here for a while, but I will come back with some fresh thoughts really soon. Until then I hope you're all ok. Revin cu vesti din Orientul Mijlociu. Hugs

tonight I was thinking about my time in Paris, thinking if I regret everything I've been through, but I guess not. I don't regret anything because I know that in every decision and every situation God has been with me, all the time. I don't regret the fact that I came back here, after how much I've been against to it this summer... I know God has a plan for my life and He makes all things to work together for my good. what would I be without Him? and where? Life has no sense without God in it. I'm thankful for every hard moment, because I know He was working good in me. "Romans 8:18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to me." He is good in me and has good for me, because He loves me and I am His. Your name be glorified in my life, God! I live for You and I know that You can use me for Your glory! Make me who You want me to be! "Romans 4:20-22 No unbelief made him waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, fully convinced that God was able to do what He has promised. This is why his faith was "counted to him as righteousness." "

My dear,
you really must know that God loves you so much that He wants you to be the best among other people. God has a bigger plan for you than you can imagine or think about! And it's almost the beginning of it! I feel this.

Even your name- the name you are carrying- tells this: that you are loved, you are His beloved! and God delights in you even if you maybe feel down or not ok in your heart. We all have this kind of need: a desire for more of God, more more of God, and it feels like we are so empty that we are not good enough for Him or what we're doing is not how He wants, but i think God loves us exactly the way we are, with our thirst and hunger, with our brokeness and hurts, when we feel pain or when we are completely in adoration for Him, and the only thing He wants is to go before Him, in His presence with our simple hearts and there He can completely fulfill that need.
I believe that God knows us better than we know ourselves; He knows us before we even were born, and I believe God sees everything you're going through in your life. And because you are His, He WON'T let you get lost.
I can see that your heart is praying this: "Set me as a seal upon your heart, as a seal upon your arm, (Song of Songs 8:6)" but because He is the Almighty God He already knows everything: "For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. (Psalm 139:13)" He knows every single cry of your heart, every desire, dream or need. I believe that where He leads us He puts us there for a reason, sometimes it seems hard because we cannot see the whole image, we cannot see what He has prepared.
Your name is written in the palm of God's hand "See, I engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me." (Isaiah 49:16), your name is written in Heaven "but rejoice that your names are written in heaven." (Luke 10:20)
You are His child and God won't let anything or someone to take you away from Him.
Maybe it's the fact that you find yourself far away from home, in a new place where you have to start with everything from the beginning - trust in people, finding a place that feels secure or comfortable, maybe you're feeling alone and you think that God himself is not there too. But I know that in these moments God is not far away from you, He is right beside you.
There is nothing we can do to make God love us less or more - He loves us continually and infinitely, forever.
You are a treasure. Your name means treasured - You are precious in God's eyes, the most precious thing on earth for Him. He cares about you from the bottom of His heart. Have you ever thought about God's heart? About His heart as a father? or have you ever thought about feeling the beat of His heart? I believe He can show you and make you feel His heartbeat that He has for you. Huge! It's such an immeasurable love!
If we stop and think, moments of loneliness and emptiness we felt before many times, but God brought us even closer to Him in those moments. I see God like a father for me, a real father - He never let us down, He never disappoints, He never hurts us, He loves us to madness, He is full of compassion and mercy, full of goodness and blessing, and His love never fails.
We are humans, it's true, and i see how many times i'm struggling by myself to do something, to fight for something, but I never succed until I let God to take care of everything. I have to put Him first above all else.
We are not alone in this; I mean we don't fight and struggle to make it better because we can't. He is the one who molds us, and makes us look more like Him. We just have to have faith and stay close to His words and His promises. I also think that there where God placed you right now and (maybe) it seems hard, God is polishing you to become more like Him, in you to be seen His character, His light for those around you.
I will pray for you that His presence and love to warm your heart, for you to feel His real touch, for a renewing of mind, body, spirit and heart, so you would become more stronger and more like Jesus. Nothing stands against you and God. He wants you as much as you say you want to know Him, His heart.
I will pray for peace, His peace in your heart so you can hear how He calms every storm inside and outside, and for your sadness to disappear from your heart. His joy and rest fills your heart.
God loves you, He is not mad with you, you didn't disappoint Him. He really cares about you and He loves you even at your darkest.
My mom is always saying me to sing when I feel down or sad or worried, because singing and praising God brings peace and joy in heart. Do the same.
You are incredibly beautiful and lovely and sweet and smart!

what God can't do...

1. He can't stop thinking about you. Ps 139:13 You made my whole being; you formed me in my mother's body. 

what is He doing in His own free time? He is thinking about you. You are so important for Him that He can't stop thinking about you.

2. He can't stop loving you. Jeremiah 31:3 I love you with a love that lasts forever, that is why I have ontinued to show you kindness. 

He declared it: Eternal Love, all the time. 

3. He can't abandon you. Deut. 31:6 Don't be afraid of them and don't be frightened, because the Lord your God will go with you. He will not leave you or forget you. 

He will never throw you away.

4. He can't lie. Numbers 23:29 God is not a human being, and He will not lie. He is not a human, and He does not change His mind. What He says He does, what He promises He makes come true. 

5. He can't break His promises. 

6. He can't remember your sins. Isaiah 43:25 I, I am the One who erases all your sins, for my sake, I will not remember your sins. 

7. He can't produce failures. He is victory, in His name you are victorious. 

"But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of Him everywhere." 

8. He can't get tired. Isaiah 40:28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary, His understanding is unsearchable.

9. He can't start a work without finishing it. John 17, Ephesians 2:10.

10. He can't be unholy! Isaiah 6:3 Holy, holy, holy, holy is the Lord of hosts, the whole earth is full of His glory. 

1 Peter 1:15 but as He who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct!

the miracle is in You- 

te-ai lepadat de mine de trei ori si nici nu a cantat cocosul,
ai rasarit in flori de gheata pe fereastra din colt a inimii.
s-a dus toamna. incepe o noua era la patinoar.

- Nu pot sa mananc, a spus ea. Nu. Nu pot..
- Sunt deja satula. Fluturii mi-au saturat stomacul. Si nu imi mai doresc nimic altceva.

E verde deasupra mea, intre mine si cer.

astept cu sufletul la gura, cu inima inclinata, cautand sentimentul de apartenenta in gramada de caramizi in care sufletul mi-e incuiat.

tentative de iscalituri si portrete pe jumatate sterse, uitate si ingalbenite de timp..
ce ma enerveaza timpul.

flamand inghit cu ochii visul, speranta si dorul...
traind intr-un viitor necunoscut.

ma uitam la buchetul meu de flori, care Rezista de cateva zile, si ma gandeam:

as vrea sa am frumusetea unei flori, dar care sa se nu ofileasca niciodata!

De ce se ofileste o floare?

Am cunoscut doi oameni

(tocmai am descoperit ca supararea uneori e amuzanta.)

am cunoscut doi oameni care stateau imbratisati intr-o inclestare de ultima data pe-o banca. in fata ochilor mei se intampla viata.
am intalnit un inger.

curgea din privirile lui si dragostea si bunatatea si cerul. n-am mai vazut niciodata un inger.
si mi-a fost trimis mie.
will i ever meet you again, dear angel?

despre invatatura de minte.

"sobre toda cosa que guardes, guarda tu corazon, porque de el mena la vida." Pv 4:23

cel ce vrea ceva de tine, trebuie sa plateasca pretul, nu darui nimic.

aminteste-ti, cel ce vrea ceva de la tine trebuie sa plateasca pretul.. ca un bun marinar, trebuie sa infrunte marea si sa lupte impotriva oricarui obstacol ca sa fie acolo, langa tine.

Exercitiu de gandire

sunt un melc cu sufletul tulbure.
am baut apa dintr-un izvor cu unde verzi.
inchis in cochilie joc,
un joc cu-autobenzi.

nu poti sa pui nici stop, nu poti sa dai nici save.
o viata ai si .. si trebuie sa ai grija sa nu o pierzi,
ci doar sa avansezi.

mi-e greu sa urc la deal cateodata,
mi-e greu sa nu alunec inapoi.

sunt melc si azi joc sah cu Dumnezeu.
El face o mutare, iar eu privesc.

Eu stau si ma gandesc ce-ar trebui sa fac.

incerc sa rezolv o problema de matematica si imi da cu.. eroare.
nu stiu cu ce am gresit,.. unde?

Eu, sunt o varza ciudata!

...pana la urma, Dumnezeu e barbat sau femeie?

Sois un liberateur de reves!

Nu vreau sa fiu o gaina lasa!  

"¹⁴ Vous êtes la lumière du monde. Une ville située sur une montagne ne peut être cachée;

¹⁵ et on n'allume pas une lampe pour la mettre sous le boisseau, mais on la met sur le chandelier, et elle éclaire tous ceux qui sont dans la maison.

¹⁶ Que votre lumière luise ainsi devant les hommes, afin qu'ils voient vos bonnes oeuvres, et qu'ils glorifient votre Père qui est dans les cieux. " - Matthieu 5

barely home,

sunt o fugara. fug trecand peste granitele si colturile inimii. macar de mi-ar fi vorbit in franceza. macar de ar fi fost strain, macar de-ar fi fost altul.
unde iti e credinta, suflet? - nu trai in necredinta!

ridica-mi ceata, Doamne, sa ma pocaiesc de nesiguranta!

marea rosie

au fost doar 20 de secunde de curaj. au plecat luand dupa ei si urmele pasilor grei, si gandurile, pana si suflarea si-au tinut-o pret de doua secunde din cele 20. au plecat si hotararea lor nimic nu a mai putut-o darama. intotdeauna un ultim raspuns al lui Dumnezeu ar fi " am ceva mai bun pentru tine. " si asta inseamna doar sa urmezi Voia Sa. si ei asta au ales sa faca, si nimic nu le putea sta impotriva, nici macar marea.

si apoi ea o sa se inece in valurile marii, cum s-a inecat faraon si toata armata sa.

exodul din robia durandiana.

ma hranesc din nou cu nurofen, invelindu-mi sufletul cu un fular si lung si moale ca o pana, peste care torn putin ceai de fructe rosii. incerc sa capturez in ochi, fix, toate imaginile si chipurile trecatoare care dau din picioare pe trecerea de pietoni. m-am pierdut in multime.
imi spal pletele cu vantul si razele de soare care au strapuns cerul, poate, pentru ultima data-n toamna si peste mine pe-un pod, pe Sena.
doar tu trebuie sa imi tii inima cu mainile amandoua, altfel frigul ce navaleste afara o loveste, o ingheata si piere. si eu nu vreau sa am o inima mov.
am inteles, caci Tu esti singurul, si Dragostea mea de-odinioara.
Dragostea mea Dintai.

m-am gandit ca la nunta mea sa fac clatite!

Cand niciun om nu intelege limba durerii tale, Dumnezeu intelege. Si El e acolo.

am descoperit ca Dumnezeu face orice loc frumos prin prezenta Lui
^^